6.08.2008

Day of Rest

For once a Sunday was pretty much a day of rest. No meetings other than our regular 3 hour block, no one coming over for dinner, we didn't go to anyone's house for dinner, no phone calls asking for help with anything, relatively well behaved children... all in all a restful, wonderful Sunday. We always try to have the girls bathed, clothes set out, the menu planned and ready to be prepared on Saturday. It really helps us to have a quieter, more peaceful Sunday morning (as peaceful as it gets with 4 kiddos under the age of 8). We don't always manage it, but this week we did. In fact, we were ready to head off to church with 30 minutes to spare! Considering we live 6 houses away from the chapel, 30 minutes was a but early, EVEN for me. Anyone who knows me know I'd rather be a half hour early than one minute late.

I decided it would be fun to snap a couple of photos of me and the girls (mostly to pass the time before church). Didn't my hubby do a nice job with the first shot? It's been a goal - one of the hardest for me - to be in more photos with the kids, etc. I know I've talked about WHY this is important to me, but even knowing why it's important hasn't made it easier to step out from my hiding place behind the camera.


I was telling my husband how disappointed I am in myself for not sticking to my healthly lifestyle goals very closely. I haven't stayed on track, and while I haven't put on any weight since losing 13 pounds (like, back in February/March) I haven't lost any more. 100% my fault. I KNOW I'm addicted to sweets, no question. You stick some brownies or a DQ blizzard in front of me, and I'm a gonner. Ugh. So disgustingly weak. I've also been SUPER lazy when it comes to exercise. If I'm lucky I exercise once or twice a week. Maybe enough to MAINTAIN my wieghtm but not enough to lose more. I've wasted a lot of time - and just thinking where I COULD be right now makes me more sick to my stomach. When is it going to just hit me - enough to stick??
But then I look at my little angels. I think I'll be passing along enough issues to my poor unsuspecting children, that issues with body image does not have to be one of them. I'm careful to not express my negative thoughts about my weight around them, but they pick up on these things. I want them to look at the beauty inside of a person, and not feel that they have to be a size 2 to be worth something - to me, to themselves, or to the Lord. It's something I'm going to have to take more care about, and a message I'll have to be more proactive about teaching my daughters. In just a few short years they'll be teenagers, and I want them to be full of confidence, happiness, and excitement for life. Have I told you what cool kids I have? I think they are the bees knees :)

TJ was talking to us about what she learned in her Primary class today, and she mentioned how her teacher was trying to teach them how to recognize the difference between being reverent, and irreverent. She took them on a little trip down the hall to the foyer where there were people talking noisly, and her class mates were "twidgeting". LOL! I love that word. Then she went into the chapel to listen to some young women singing a song, and she noted how everyone was quiet, sitting nicely, and how she felt really happy inside. She wrote about it in her journal when we got home, and I was thinking how sad it is that us as adults can't be reverent in every place in the church. We have classes to be at... why are there always many adults sitting out in the foyer yakking loudly and setting a negative example for our children? GET TO CLASS!!! Oh, and NONE of them have children with them either, so there are NO excuses, in my opinion. Besides, it's THEM who are missing out on a great spiritual boost that I look forward to each week. Too bad.

I can't believe my JJ is getting so big. It's fun in so many ways, and I have to admit, that I don't miss the tiny baby stage with her one tiny bit. I love watching other moms with their new babies, but I feel zero desire to be there again. JJ is in nursery, which is AWESOME (though lately she has started making a fuss when we drop her off) and she is SO CLOSE to being potty trained. Oh happy day when that happens. Not that I have anything against diapers (actually, I do) but it will be one stage I don't miss...at all!

All in all a great Sunday. I'm off to drop off a birthday card for that sister in the ward who had a brain tumor removed (nice way to spend a birthday) then it's time to relax a little more. My calling has kept me busier than I could have imagined, but like I said being busy is a great way to keep out of trouble :) Remember, there are good, better, and best ways to spend our time. Blogging is probably a good one, maybe not the better or best way, but it is my journal a lot of time (like today) so I guess writing in my journal isn't such a bad Sabbath Day activity. I do handwrite in my journal as well because, frankly, I can't say everything I'm really thinking and feeling on here. Who wants to read about that?!? My husband doesn't even want to hear everything that's on my mind, even though I use every opportunity to tell him ;)

I hope you have a wonderful Sunday, and a great week to come! See ya!

6 comments:

Joanne said...

you and your girlies are beautiful inside and out! Hey I totally know the gal that had the brain tumor. I met her last summer as she is the best friend of my good friend here. small world eh?

Mandy said...

I LOVE Sunday's like that where everything falls into place. It's so nice. It really helps to make things more peaceful and it's easier to feel the Spirit.

I feel the same way about adults in the halls. Though I have done it once or twice in my life due to feeling really sick, it's not a regular thing. I would much rather be in class learning something. It is sad that not everyone feels that they need to be in class to. It's their salvation they're risking so I am grateful that I don't have the desire to sit out and chat to other people. I always feel guilty if I miss class so that's motivation enough for me to get there.
You look so good! Amazing, actually. Never be afraid to be in front of the camera. We all have to step out of our comfort zones. I was really adamant about not taking pictures of Tanner when he was first born but I was glad that a friend pointed out to me that it was something that would be important because he would probably want to know what he looked like. It is harder to be in front of the camera when we're taking the pictures but sometimes we just have to let someone else take the picture. Our kids will love us more for it.

Lynn said...

Oh Bobbi. We women seem to be our own worst critic. Why is that? You truly have wonderful and beautiful and deep insights. I love to hear you "talk out loud". Many of your thoughts are my thoughts. Blog away. Journalizing is a very appropriate Sunday activity....especially when it inspires someone else. When it teaches someone else. When it motivates someone else. ME!
Thank you!

Jenn said...

Bobbi- you are beautiful!!! However- I can completly relate to the weight issue. And the raising kids with the right attitude and self image. This is how I look at it though. When I was pregnant with my kids I was very healthy. I didn't stress about the weight gain. I didn't try to stay thin. I exercised and ate healthy, but the whole reason for doing so was for there well being. Now that I am not pregnant I have no reason to be heavy. And the way I need to take care of them now is in setting an example for them of a healthy lifestyle, exercising and loving myslef no matter what. I don't know if that helps at all, but hopefully!

Just rememebr how beautiful you are!

Tejal said...

I love the way your thoughts mirror mine..I'm stepping into the threshold of marriage and at the same time I'm scared of passing along those issues to my kids..I too have issues with body image and constantly struggle with my weight, I still have to reach that point where I can look and myself and not criticise anything about me..I'm sure I will get there one day..and so shall you...

Keep writing away..its a great outlet..

tejal, India

k said...

Dear Bobbie-Jo, I love reading your blogs... it doesn't happen often but when I do I read at least 10 in a row! I don't really know you but I love you! You have a fantastic and honest outlook on life and I learn so much from you. At this time, I feel heavy with my new calling but I know that leaning on the Lord has helped me get this far... so I'll lean a bit further :) Thanks for making me truly LOL as I read your words - you are such a light to me ~ thank you!!! ~Karen